the guilt of loneliness (by jessica laurean)
Loneliness brought me guilt and pleasure.
The guilt of not loving you, and the pleasure of having you.
I loved you and I didn't praise you,
I knew I had you but never thought I'd lose you.
Loneliness lingered inside my mind,
I wanted you but I wanted you away from me.
I pushed you too far for me to grasp your touch again.
The feeling of loneliness haunts me.
I'd rather be far from you to avoid the pain and misery.
Although, I want the pleasure of having you touch me.