a series: questions you wish you were asked
4.
questions i wish i were asked:
do you need help?
can you describe the process of grieving alone?
is there something you never got to tell me?...
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by myself in a coffee shop,
trying to separate work from home.
hoping to spend those fruits traveling--
painting till death--
but for now, still sowing the seeds.
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caretaker: tell me how your heart is.
peacemaker: tell me how you feel.
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by myself folding the laundry,
trying to separate independence from love,
hoping to be understood somehow,
instead of being treated like some prodigy.
but for now, still making a home.
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proofreader: show me words you cannot find.
impromptu teacher: i can show you the way.
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by myself driving home from university,
trying to separate myself from responsibility,
wondering if i left a piece of my life in the computer lab.
wondering if i keep turning the volume knob,
i can reach the upper limit somehow.
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wondering whose burden is mine to carry.
wondering if i buried a piece of my mind inside that casket.
wondering what year i am living in.
wondering if the light i just passed was green.
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by myself writing a poem
trying to separate prose from meter,
wondering if i am trying too hard to say something simple,
but hoping that i am still being heard.